Keto: On the Journey

Good morning all!

So I wasn’t planning on sharing any transformation related things until I reached my goal weight. However I have decided that the journey is very important. And that for those who are thinking about going a weight loss/ keto path as well should get an idea as to what to expect. Or if you are currently struggling while on your journey.

True that not everyone will have the same experience but you’re never alone. There is probably someone out there that has gone through the struggles or fears you face. I have definitely been through many ups and downs. I know I still don’t have it all figured out, but no body does.

I’m going to give you some back story. All through middle/ high school I struggled with weight. My mom is a phenomenal cook and I am an emotional eater. Not a good combo. Still there’s no ones cooking I love as much as my moms. After high school I went to collage and walked a whole lot. My school was a mile away and I didn’t have a car. This definitely helped but I still never got to where I thought I should be. I was around 150-155 lbs and nothing seemed to help.

While I was at collage I met my husband. We were together for almost five years before getting married. (We got married 5-5-13, just to give you a little bit of a timeline.) Funny story a month after announcing to my family that we had set a wedding date, we had to change it. I was pregnant and my due date was 3 days before our planned wedding date.

Good times… So I ended up being 5 months pregnant when we got married. Not something I would recommend it was very uncomfortable. The wedding photos of me are not my favorite either. Hindsight is generally 20/20, but life moves on. I was up to 190 lbs before I gave birth to my first amazing little man.

During the first year after he was born I was able to lose a bunch of weight and get down to the lowest weight I can remember 147. Well Unfortunately that didn’t last long, as I become pregnant again. And once again I got up to 190 lbs before I gave birth to my second amazing little man.

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This time however the weight wouldn’t come off.

I exercised I tried changing my birth control, I thought I was eating healthy. All while chasing after two little boys. No matter what I did my weight stayed in the 167 to 175 range. For two years I struggled with this. Until one day while I was at the doctor I saw someone, who was different than who I normally saw. This Doctor told me about his lifestyle choice; Keto. At first I was skeptical. I had already considered myself low carb, and with a pretty healthy lifestyle.

What could be so different about keto?

That’s when he explained to me the difference between a sugar burner and a fat burner. That was enough for me to look into it and give it a try. The thought of burning fat (yes please), not getting hangry all the time, and having a clear alert mind, what could be bad? I’d say the bad is fighting my emotional eating habits. It has been a lot easier since being a bit into my keto journey, but I still have bad days.

There are also days where I feel overwhelmed and whatever the kids are eating looks so tasty. I’m fairly ashamed to admit how much I’ve actually given in to those fleeting thoughts the last week or so. It wasn’t until a few days ago that I realized how bad I had gotten.

For the entire first month and a half to two months of keto I did great I nailed my macros more days than not, I for a stevia I liked and got away from sugar. Thought I was in the clear. However once I stopped tracking my macros and holding myself accountable, a French toast stick here couldn’t be bad, and a handful of Chex mix there, what’s the harm? Chocolate chips, overeating peanut butter, having a few pretzels.

All these little things I’d tell myself would be no harm done, were actually causing harm.

I noticed I was feeling a bit hangry more often, my face started to break out and I couldn’t get through the afternoon without a snack. My stomach hurt and I often was feeling sick. These were the signs of my body telling me what I was doing was not good for me.

So I came up with a plan.

I would come clean on my sneaky grazing habits and move forward. Its been a rough couple days feel like I’m detoxing all over again, but I know I’ll be better for it. Though I do have to remind myself “I will not cheat today” over and over, it’ll be worth it. I know that being keto is what I want and I will not left myself be the only thing standing in my way of a better me. In the two and a half months I’ve been Keto I have lost about 18 lbs. After two years of struggling and trying and being told I must not be trying hard enough, I finally saw results. I am currently about 152lbs.

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It was a pretty intense experience for me. I feel like I have a new look on life. For a long time all I could think about was having the perfect body and getting my weight down. Now I just want to feel better, more fit, more in control. I still have a goal weight; of 140lbs but its not hanging over my head anymore. It truly is freeing when you like go of a specific you that you want and just focus on being a better you than you are today.

There’s my summed up journey so far, still have a ways to go but I am actually looking forward to it. Has anyone else struggled with the nibble problem? How did you overcome it? I’d love to hear from you with your thoughts/ struggles. I also hope that you will follow my blog and stay up to date on the crazy show that is my life. Thanks all! Don’t forget Live Crazed!!

My Fitness Journal

Good morning!

Today I’m going to give you a full look into my fitness journal. I’m currently in my second month of using it so I’m sure I will be making more changes here and there, but overall I’m pretty happy with it. I actually got the idea from when I tried to take on bullet journaling. For those of you who haven’t heard of a bullet journal, think of it as a hand drawn planner/ habit tracker/ meal planner/ endless possibility journal.

Even though it was and fun, it was too much for me to keep up with and draw out every week. But I really liked the tracking aspect of it, so I made my own version. I made my fitness Journal to keep track of my fitness/ weight-loss/ keto journey. Now that my keto diet is pretty regular I may not track my macros next month. If I hit a stall then it would have been too soon, and I will start tracking again. I guess we’ll see!IMG_20180511_101557561

As of right now I take monthly progress pictures and measurements, so far I haven’t seen much of an inches difference, its been more of a weight difference. Definitely not complaining though! It feels really good to see the numbers go down. Especially after two years of trying with little to no progress. Keto was really a game changer for me.

My fitness routine is about the same as it has been for the last 2 years, with some slight adjust adjustments. The main adjustments have been to add more arm workouts. I’m hoping that soon I can get to the gym more regularly, but currently my efforts are at home. Not that I wouldn’t like to go to the gym its just not entirely possible for now.

Being an army wife is not always great. There are many things about the army that are very nice but it’s definitely give and take. Anyway my wonderful husband did recently get me a recumbent bike and some free weights so that has been helping. Having a few options has been a really nice change. We also have a punching bag in the garage that I want to start using more.

So why do I keep a fitness journal?

It helps to keep me motivated and it helps me hold myself accountable. It feels great to fill in more than one box per day in my workout tracker, and it also bums me out when I don’t. I think its also important to do the monthly check in to also keep me motivated to really make a difference so I can see progress. That’s what this is all about anyway right? Seeing results and gaining confidence in yourself. I’m quite proud of myself that I have moved beyond obsessing about the number I see on the scale.

Yes I track it and I have a goal but I more so want to wear the clothes I want to wear. And be able to look at myself in the mirror and be like damn, yes that’s me. I don’t know if anyone else feels like this, but right now when I look at myself in the mirror I can’t help but thinking that’s just not how I’m meant to be.

In my workout tracker I have a column for the day and then I have column for each of my most done workouts: core, arms, legs, bike, and miscellaneous, for things like walks or an occasional run, of if I actually do use the punching bag. Then of course total minutes. Lately its definitely been a sad sight. I’ve been more focused on getting into a more productive cleaning routine. Which is important, but I can’t neglect my fitness goals.

I also ended up taking a couple days off because I believe I pinched a nerve in my arm. And doing just about anything made it hurt, and feel super weird.For my Keto tracker I track macro percentages; fat, protein and carbs, also my total calorie intake, as well as my calories burned. Calories burned I get from my FitBit. I do not believe that it is completely accurate but I like to think its close enough to help me keep an eye on my deficit.

Most often I seem to intake around 1300 calories and I burn at least 2400 a day some days higher with only here and there being lower. Making my deficit 1000+ calories a day, definitely a good place to be. I also track my ketone levels to try and see if in ketosis. I use Ketostix which aren’t the most accurate but when you’re starting it can help some. They aren’t very accurate because they track the overflow of ketones in your system. Ketostix test your urine for ketone levels.

So at first when your body is still training to become a fat burner ketones will show in the urine test. Once your body is fully fat burning adapted ketones wont really show up in your urine. I check twice a day and the amount I have will be gone by the end of my third month, after that I don’t think I will be getting more. The most accurate is blood testing. Much like a insulin blood test.

For me its more listening to my body to know if I’m in ketosis. If I feel alert and my mind is clear, and I’m not really craving snacks then I’m usually in ketosis.The last thing I have in my Fitness journal is a space for a daily log. The first month I used this almost everyday. This month I haven’t used it much. I do believe that I should log more in there. So that I can check in and see where I was when. That would be a good tracker of my journey, and a more raw account, not just bare numbers and facts. Because as I’ve said before I’m not doing this for the numbers it’s for how it makes me feel. IMG_20180516_110700590

There you have it! My fitness journal.

A work in progress to be sure but a helpful tool for my journey. Do any of you keep any type of fitness journal? How do you track your progress? Don’t forget to follow my blog so you don’t miss the never ending battle of me and the craziness of life! Check back in Friday I’ll be sharing my DIY Hair mask! Lots of messy fun to be had there. Have a great day!